Donation From the Heart

Today my daughter made an amazing Transformation, she decided it was finally time to make the donation of a life time. Since last year my daughter has been saying she wanted to donate her hair to a place that makes wigs for people who have cancer. We looked up the info and knew it had to 8-10 inches and how it had to be cut. Although we did not know who in the city (salons) did this, nor did we find out until yesterday we hit all of them and asked them what they knew, some do it all the time and told us what companies they use and we went home last night with homework to check them all out.

And this is what happened! When the woman started cutting I started to get butterflies in my stomach and couldn't stop saying "oh my! oh my! OMG look at you" I was taken back with emotion and upset, I was so suprised.

Although there was some remorse after the high wore off my daughter is just fine now and is very happy she did this good deed.

I told her its a brand new start for 2009 and she will be the hippest chick alive.

Happy New Year Everyone!

Orphan Annie

I have decided I can gather a better synthetic made family peice by peice rather than the organic one I have been hatched into.

I know you all think organic is the way to go but I've finally come to the conclusion that "home grown" isn't all its cracked up to be.

My new years resolution is to create my own family....basically I have what I need already in my garden but if anyone should know a rich set of elderlies who want to enhance their family photos give them my number, I'd be sure to find the time.

Green with Envy

As I sit here at my computer I realize how fortunate some people in this world are. I say fortunate because its not everyone who can say their life is the best or can they? I guess its all in how you measure it.

My entire life I have tried to make "that" family, create "that" family but you know what, either those people are already "that" family or they are not.

As a child it was rare that events happened at all and when they did someone always goofed up, there was a fist fight, or a screaming match or someone made a complete a$$ out of themselves. My mother would say to that person "you made a fool out of me" regardless of the situation, never did she say "are you ok", "can we talk about it", "make it stop" nothing. I would like to add that only in the later years did I become one of them.

As a kid at Christmas I spent Christmas Eve all alone sitting in the living room, I have 4 much older siblings, you would think our house would be hustling and bustling right? Wrong.

My night consisted of watching Christmas movies by myself that were on tv. Why you ask? Because my mother locked herself into the bedroom to wrap more gifts that she didn't get done before (huge procrastinator), my dad went visiting to friends houses, my oldest brother was out drinking with the boys, my sister - drinking with the girls, my middle brother anywhere but there - probably reading a book and my other brother was playing a video game that I was not allowed to play or be anywhere near him because he couldn't stand me.

Then I was rushed to bed and locked in, yes I said I was locked in my room with a hook because I was so excited I would burst from my room to see the gifts but all I could resort to was banging on the door and begging to be let free.

Where was the family togetherness? Where was the family, with other people's families I guess. Looking back I thought Christmas dinner was special but today my mother said "that is always so much work because nobody helps to make it or clean up after I should have cancelled it years ago, I hate having all those people over".

Well that is a nice how do you do, I just said this week that I don't like cooking Christmas dinner for a big group because it is too hard......although I finished that any other time of year I'm good with any other meal. Its not that I don't like having people over and I never expect them to help clean up its just the labour intensity of the whole Christmas dinner thing. :o)

When I read about other families traditions and their goings on this Christmas Eve I am green with envy on the thought that they make every effort to be together this time of year, they plan and make it happen.

My mother called me on the weekend to say "you can come over at any point to pick up your families gifts, everyone dropped theirs off".

I went so far in past years to deliver each and every siblings gifts (hand deliver) to their house until I realized they didn't care to see me and I wasn't really keen on being with them too long either. I also went to visit each one on Christmas day to see what everyone got (which I love to see what other people get) and one had their families gifts all put away by noon the next day (because it caused a big mess under her tree), one showed some items but then complained about what another sibling got him and the other said "look you see it".

I missed out on the family gatherings, the get togethers where being with family was the one and only important part. In my family that doesn't measure on anyones scale.

How fortunate that there are families out there who really do follow this guideline and I am happy to be able to share only a small peice of that by listening to their funny family stories and what happened and who did what. Not to mention how much fun they had seeing everyone.

It really makes me think that somewhere, somehow I pray I can make that change with my family.......if only I could find those damn adoption papers!!!!!

Forward -

I am looking forward to the Secret Santa party........I cannot wait to give my gift to my gal and I cannot wait to see who has my name. The food is always amazing the company is usually the bomb and the fact we are all together makes everything better.

I wish there was not a forecast for a Blizzard coming and this cold weather really sucks but its NB and its officially winter so I guess we are stuck with it.

I am on vacation in a day or 2, payday comes early this week and only 2 more gifts to buy. I know I've been saying 2 more gifts for 3 weeks now but this time I have to be right or else someone is gettin' nuttin' for Christmas........LOL

The one big thing I am most looking forward to....my daughters eyes on Christmas morning, that means the most to me in the whole wide world and the thought of my bestest friend calling me to say "I can't believe you did this", that is what I'm most looking forward to....that makes me the happiest to know the people I care about know the gifts I chose for them are specifically for them and while I was shopping for them they were in my mind and my heart.

Merry Christmas Everyone! Enjoy your time off - I know I will.

How is it that....

You work your tail off trying to get things done and BOOM someone decides "lets clean out my in-box before I leave on vacation"......lets forward everything to MELANIE!

I have a full in-box and all those lucky bastards are empty, nice!

How is it that everyone else is allowed to be BUSY but when I get busy I'm not allowed to get upset and pissed off but everyone else can be grumpy and have nobody talk to them but it seems as though people poke and poke when I'm upset...fuck off!

The ultimate question "ya busy", yes A-hole I am and if you ask me to get up and leave what I'm doing for you then your more of an A-hole than I thought!

Yes its friday and I'm pissed off, people are in a rush to get the hell out of here but decided it be ok for me to work my ass off while they roam the fuckin hall.

bastards!

Piss Off Santa

My daughter received her letter from Santa / Canada Post last night.....



What a stinkin' rip off that was and a total waste of time!



It was a form letter, you heard me, it was general so they could "mass" produce them. I guess they must have had that written into their new contract due to writers cramp!



Bastards! I want my child to matter and receive a hand written letter, she was waiting and waiting for that to come and it was not even taylor made to her and what she'd asked for.



Nice! Thanks Santa!

That really helps me with having the spirit of Christmas in my heart. I feel much better knowing your trying to green up the world, you should have just e-mailed the stupid letter then!

Tip

Here's a tip!

Don't drive with your dog on your lap, regardless of his size!

Some idiot was driving with their medium size dog on their lap today going through an intersection and almost - I say almost but it was much closer than almost ran into the vehicle in front of them, it was so close that the dog yelped and landed on the dash!

Nice, you love your dog soooo much that you'd like to see him go through the f'in windshield? Yeah your a great dog owner / lover aren't you?

Idiot!

Random Poop

Why are legwarmers coming back into style, they weren't the best looking peice of a wardrobe in 1985?

FYI - When you (MOM) cut someone off in the middle an explanation they are giving to YOUR child and emphasize that no its not that extreme of a case you should SHAD UP!!!!!!

Time - who the hell changed the date and time on me?

Baking - I have become this domestic diva all fo the sudden in the kitchen, I cannot stop baking...I've made 200 truffles and I'm going to make more, pumpkin bread, 2 banana breads, cup-cakes (that are so darn good) and I'm planning short bread cookies....what the hell is wrong with me?

My cell phone - the bastard keeps shutting itself off and its pissing me off

The phone - in general (work or home)

Shopping - I am so not happy with my shopping this year, I have a few great gifts but not lots of amazing gifts.....I'm bummed out that I had a hard time buying for some people this year, most years I am very pleased with my gifts but this year I look at the pile go "meh".

Wrapping - its endless! OMFG! Will it ever end? I have to stop wrapping everything, last night I basically said screw it and started using my gift bags for everything, plop, plop - done!

Cleaning - who the hell is going to clean my house while I'm baking and wrapping all those gifts? Who? If you say my DH I swear to god I'll scream! so don't!

I'm warning you!

Drivers in F'ton suck!

Why is it

Just when I think I'm ok I'm not?

I know I've bitched about this before but the 3 steps forward and 2 steps back...

On Sunday I rushed home from my DD's concert to make cupcakes for her Tuesday night Sparkes Christmas party.......I made 24 large cupcakes, frosted them fancy and then melted choc chips and drizzled it over top and placed a red or green M&M on them...they were beautiful, so beautiful my gorgeous daughter says "mama! they are so beautiful you should earn a badge for those!"

Thats my girl...my response was "honey mommy already earned her baking badge, why do you think I can do this kind of thing?" LOL

We got home, later than usual because of the poor road conditions and the message on the phone was..."sorry have to cancel the party, we will do it in January when we start back".

Oh Man! The girls had exchanged names and DD was so happy to watch her friend open her gift.....that sucks!

What sucks worse...I have 23 cupcakes with my name written all over them. Oh well, more treats for me!

Sno Ho, Ho, Ho

Our first real snow happened over night and you know what that means?

Idiot drivers who fail to clean off their car. Some don't bother cleaning it all at all in the hopes if they drive faster it will just blow off. You idiot it does blow off onto my car or right in front of me.

What about those other stupid asses that only clean off their front window and leave the sides and back covered...you only need one window to see out of? I can't figure out why the car makers waste their money and charge us more for the other WINDOWS!!!!

For god sakes dumbasses clean off your vehicles! Its snow, it requires removal unlike rain that just slides off! Grrrr

Use Them! For God Sakes Use THEM!!!!

What am I referring to?

Your god damned blinkers! Use blinkers, use blinkers, use them....I don't care if your in the turning lane you are still required to use them, its not like they will expire or wear out! For god sakes don't worry they aren't going to wear out on anyone in this city!

Last week on the way home I was following this idiot home who was driving slow to begin with and as I was preparing to pass them when they decide to yank the car into a driveway, they didn't even slow down enough to make the driveway, they squealed their tires making the turn...WTF? You fuck nut! What is wrong with you? You don't slow down to hit a driveway that is narrow going 60 kms/hr? nice! Luckily I was back enough to slow down before they could hit me.

Yesterday some old lady who (god love em) couldn't see over the steering wheel just pulled out in front of (she had waited some time, we saw her and hubby said "she's going to wait until we get up to her"). Guess what happened next? Just as we got to her...she pulled out in front of us (we had to slow down) and then drove 30 kms/hr, why pull out in front of someone if your not going to get it up to speed?

Today on my way across the river some A-hole cut me off on the bridge I was trying to get into the inside lane and he wouldn't speed up or slow down (MY blinker was on), he stayed at my bumper, finally I got over and you know what he did? Got into the other lane passed me and then cut me off to get in front of me? Are you on crack? No blinker was used!

Listen I don't want to be in an accident they cost money, I ain't got no money to feed the system any more than I already do and I'm sure most of those A-holes who can't drive can't afford any more either so why don't they try to stay out of my way and I'll try to stay away from them...but really they should have to wear an "I suck at driving" sticker.....

What do you think? We could hand them out for free so long as they promise to put them on their cars (front & back)!!!!

Advent Calendar Day #2

Wow! Who would have thought that a box filled with toys and treats would get a kid out of bed so fast? Well really it only makes sense doesn't it?

Yesterday the gift was too big to fit into that tiny 2x2x2 little cubby so I wrapped it up and left a note in the cubby that said ...."to find your present go to mama's sock drawer".......well you would have thought we lit her on FIRE! Zoom, down she went.....what a kid.

This morning I stood in the hallway and said "Oh Daddy did you know today is Dec 2, the 2nd day of the advent calendar?"

ZOOM! goes this kid past me......cracked her door open to find a bracelet.....

She makes me laugh, she didn't want to wear the rubber, plastic bracelet to school today in case she lost it. I said "that never stopped you before from not wanting to wear things to school?"

She says well its different, it came from my advent calendar and its like a Christmas gift......oh well maybe I'll wear it then.......

thats my kid! Gotta love Christmas.

Truffle Ruffle

Today was the beginning of truffle making in our house.......who would have thought those tiny bundles of chocolate love could be so darn time consuming and frustrating? Well those of us who have made them with children can relate!



My kid was bound and determind she was going to help out........I gave in and said "sure"......that was my first mistake.



I'm tired, with a slight hang over from last nights party.



Let the Christmas games begin.

and it begins

Merry Festivfus to all and to all a good nite.....

December 1 is in 2 more days, that means the parties, the candy, the chocolates, the presents......who can stand it any longer? Who is just waiting in angst to have the big guy in the red suit come to visit?

ME!

Oh My! I still have items to get, this waiting for paydays to spend money sucks......I still haven't had those people who offered to wrap my gifts come? Whats up with that, I bought the booze, the chocolates and I have music ready and tape in the dipsenser, whats wrong with you people?

You promised! Oh well, I guess at some point I'll have to bite the bullet and do it on my own without any help! I buy them, wrap them and deliver them, when did I become the grown up here?

I much prefer to be a kid at Christmas, then you get all the perks and no downside to having to work. Jeepers!

Merry Holimas!

Shopping

I just got back from the mall over my lunch hour, I took a later lunch in the hopes the crowd would thin down some...ha! What a stupid thought that was.....

Crazy people.

The lady in front of me, I think she was doing all of her shopping in one shot, she had 2 carts that were full, she spent $600 in that one stop. Wowsers!

I just don't have that Christmas spirit yet...does anyone know where I should look?

I'd love.....

to have a whole day home (during the week) where I can stay home, drink my coffee, wrap some gifts, trim the house, do some scrapbooking ......BUT that doesn't happen....why you ask?

Because I'm one of those freaks!

Let me explain...I cannot stay home unless I take a vacation day to which I have very few at this point to take (need to keep them for Christmas), and I will not take a sick day unless I haven't slept or am throwing up.

I know I'm a freak, you don't have to say it........

I'll be home if DD needs me but other than that I don't like to miss time at work, also because I know what kind of work load I have to go back to, its worth going to work rather than sitting home.

So I wish I could take a day off and get work done but I sit here on the computer because my lazy ass can't stand to look at the pile of gifts that need to be wrapped, the house that needs to be cleaned from top to bottom, the trimming that has to go up, the baking I want to do and everything else that requires my attention..

*sigh* I think I'd rather be at work......

What the? huh?

How is it when Christmas rolls around you buy, buy, buy for everyone and then all of the sudden your MIL says will you make a list of items you'd like for Christmas and you say "well there isn't anything I can think of right now".

I just made a list of 20 items! My gawd!

To top it all off, who of you out there while buying gifts for other people pop little trinkets in the cart for yours truely? come on be honest? you do don't you?

My mom always did that and she always bought to her from her gifts as well, (From Santa I mean - ooops). To be perfectly honest if she hadn't she wouldn't have had as much to open, looking back on that I just realized that was why.....ok downer - sorry folks.

What is the most recent item you have bought yourself that you are keeping for Christmas and wrapping up or handed DH a bag to say here add this under the tree? Or what are you planning to buy?

Mine was.......my purchase from yesterday at Nick's scrapbook store, I bought some brads and stuff so DH can add them to my sock. My sock is my favourite thing to open so I want it to be smokin' hot with lots of goodies.

Yes Viriginia there really is a Santa Claus

The other night as DD and I were cuddling and enjoying our treat after bath time she looks at me says:

B: Mama?

M: yes?

B: Is Santa dead?

M: no, why do you think that?

B: Well.......Joe (not real name) told me at school today that Santa is dead and has been for 150 years, but how can that be when he brought me stuff last year and signed his name to the tag?"

M: Well B do you really believe what Joe said?

B: Well no because it doesn't make sense mama

M: So long as you believe in Santa then to you he is real

B: Mom

M: hmmm

B: do you believe in Santa?

M: I sure do, if I didn't he wouldn't come and leave little gifts for me or daddy, just you?

B: good I'm glad you believe in Santa like I do mom

The end of something good

Yesterday my good friend Nicole announced she is closing down her scrapbook store, this store holds a lot of memories for me and many other women in the local area......

You could go up there on your lunch and find Nick waiting for you, have a good chat, a great laugh and go back to work feeling refreshed.

Running into friends you haven't seen in a few weeks, having a little catch up with them or hearing Nick had a BIG, Gigantico sale on and everyone must come running this very minute before stock runs out....really she did that all the time and got me hook, line and sinker!

In the past year the economy, the hobby whichever it may be has stunted the growth of our flowering SB store.

In talking with Nick about it over the past year I completely understand, when you go to your store and nobody comes all day long you wonder why the heck am I here when I could be so much more productive or at least be earning money with less the hassle and expense?

I will miss this store very much, luckily she isn't going very far and as for keeping in touch we do that regardless.

I know this is a good step in the right direction for the overall in her life.

I'm so proud of her for having the courage to take this leap and do what she has to do. Its scary and exhiliarating all at the same time and there is no doubt in my mind she can do this bigger and better than anyone else I know.

Congrats Nick! I cannot wait to hear about your first day on the new job.....you'll knock em' dead!

Blog Block

So I've had a little bloggers block lately and had no idea what I wanted to say, imagine that? Nothing to say, me! Yeah I shocked myself to say the least.

The past couple of weeks have been a roller coaster of LIFE itself.

Remember the game LIFE? You started out with an empty station wagon and along the way you acquired a husband or wife (pink or blue peg) then you accumulated and lost funds, jobs and added children to the mix?

Didn't seem so bad did it?

How about in todays game of LIFE, what would today's game be like?

You would start out with an Honda Civic
Go to college
Stay single
Hit the bars
Get a job
Sleep around (play the field)
Hook up/break up several times
Go to Rehab
Have a baby or two
Get hitched
Buy a corvette
Lose your job
File for chapter 11
Start up your own internet business
Buy a Million Dollar home (that you cannot afford)
File for chapter 11 (yet again)
Buy a subaru
Have more kids
Buy RRSP's, RESP's
Lose your shirt in the stock market
Buy gas for your car and die.

Yep that would just about sum up the "new" game of Life....what would you add to the game of Life?

Happy Halloween All!

october 31st.....

Its Halloween Day, oh what fun...

My DD cannot wait to hit the streets tonight.......I still have my headache but fingers crossed it leaves soon, the tylenol has got to kick in at some point right?

Enjoy your halloween night everyone, be good, be safe and eat lots of candy!

An Ode to my Headache

Good Morning Headache,

Nice to have you visit again this week - NOT!

So lovely of you to come just as I awake each morning and cause me great pain, not to mention you put me in the loveliest of moods.

Whats that? Yes my DH is very happy you came to visit again as well...he said so himself.

Sincerely,
The Bitch with a Headache

Murphy's at it Again!

Why is it that my motto has always been 3 steps forward and 2 steps back?

When things start to go right or semi-ok bombs start going off everywhere? My co-workers ask me why I'm so jumpy all the time? Well here's the deal.....if its not one thing its another.

Just when my home life starts to pick up my outside home life goes all wonky, or my work life loses control and to top it all off my family will stick it to me when they can and as they like......*sigh*

Well my home life has improved recently (somewhat) and now my work life gets tougher and tougher. It takes one person to cause a shit storm and the ripple effect takes hold......I shake my head......My nose is clean.......they can do as they like but this bitch chick told how it was, now they can go deal with it themselves and sulk in the corner!

I'm always in "protect mode" all the time.....

Murphy hates me, I'm convinced of it.

Go suck a lemon Murphy! Get off my cloud before I push you!

Tuesday Ramblings

here, here its Tuesday - yeah!

So whats new in my world you ask? Well thanks for asking, let me tell you...

My new wheels arrive today - yeah me!

I love my coffee in the mornings

The Nintendo DS is an amazing invention

Selling Girl Guide cookies are pretty darn easy and fun too

I wonder why everyone wants to work really hard all on the same day?

ASAP is a word I hate, hate, hate!

There are some really great family movies coming out in the next few months - HSM being a major one!

I've started my Christmas list

I bought one Christmas gift last week - yeah me.......no wait I bought 3 gifts last week....2 were for my Secret Santa.......hee hee....

Lip Gloss is my new fascination

I love my 2 new pairs of shoes, even on the first day they feel great!

I laugh every time someone hears my "phone voice" and gets all flustered....(I've been told I have a sex phone type voice)....go figure...I got one thing going for me?

Its 5:27 am

Good Gawd let me sleep, I'm tired but damn it here I sit. Sirens woke me up at 4am and I tossed and turned for about 45 minutes then finally realized it wasn't going to happen.....me going back to sleep.

So here I sit at this ungodly hour.......DD will be up in about 1 hour and my day is filled with running around...I know Sunday you say but yes it is. No day of rest for me this weekend.

My ultimate weekend is to be in no rush at all in the mornings and stay in my PJ's until about 11am, I like events that are planned for well after the noon hour. Although those early birds get the worm, they also get no sleep! Dang!

I hear the cat beating his head on the door wanting up, we lock him down there at night and he hears me up here......what a PITA he is.....grrrr! If he wakes anyone else up I'll thump his furry ass!

So I think I've surfed the net as much as I can and I might go lay on the couch, I can usually drift back off to sleep while laying there.......

My body is tired but my mind is awake......I don't think my brain received the Sleep all Nite memo?

I don't understand?

This morning I had this crazy convo with my daughter about Christmas.....

It started out we were discussing her allowance and how well she has been doing saving her money and not blowing on nothing......

She comes back with ......."well I want to buy the puppy at Zellers that pee's and has a leash".

I say "really, you want another dog, why would you waste your money on that?"

She says "its my money mom and I want that toy".

I say "you know Christmas is coming, what are you going to ask Santa for?"

She says "I don't want anything for Christmas, I'm not writing a note to Santa"

I say "So why did you ask Auntie for 3 things"

She said "well thats all I want, I don't want anything else"

I say "and this pee'ing dog?"

She did not respond for a minute and said "so I'm not getting the dog am I? (rolling her yes no less)

I was beside myself.......

So my 6 year old girl does not want to write to Santa nor make a list, she isn't a toy playing person, only sometimes...and now she wants nothing....

Am I over-reacting? What do I do? I can't believe this child is really mine?

History goes POOF up in smoke.....

What a sad day it was yesterday to discover that a piece of New Brunswicks History went up in smoke on Friday night.

A covered bridge in the Stoneridge, NB area, a place where I grew up and drove through this covered bridge too many times to even count. As a kid my parents went on the "Sunday Drive" and when we came to the bridge dad would say "are you ready" and he'd speed through honking the horn the whole way through....it is a strong childhood memory for me.

My name was carved into the walls of that bridge, along with every other teenager who ever grew up in that area.......if those walls could talk!

It was vandalism, a terrible thing that everyone encounters and it happens so frequent these days.

There are suspects in the case already.....coming from a small community - people talk and they talk a lot.

The community is outraged and its been said when the names come out the community is going to take matters into their own hands, I have no doubt that this will happen...

A very sad day in NB History, although I do not know the exact number but covered bridges in New Brunswick are becoming more and more rare due to vandalism. This is a transportation issue, the buses, the mail carriers.......their entire routes will change on Tuesday, what a tragedy for everyone. Such a loss.

Ya Think?

Are you someone who tries to spare someone else's feelings are do you care?

Are you a person who thinks the world revolves around you and don't care what you say or do because your you its all ok?

Are you someone who says "Yuck Fou" to everyone and everything and if you think it, you believe you should say it?

Do you think at all that what you say or what your do affects another human being?

How you do something affects another person?

If you keep your mouth shut and not say what you want to say, wouldn't that be ok sometimes?

Keeping your thoughts, just that "your thoughts" sometimes might be much better?

Leaving things unsaid sometimes is best, BUT there are instances when spilling it would have taken you much further.....so whats up with that?

Here's a challenge - THINK, THINK, THINK!

You are not the only person roaming on this earth, there are others out there floating around trying to accomplish the same shit you are, just surviving so lets not make it any harder than it needs to be...deal? Deal!

Now I'll climb down off my soap box and finish my post.....

Today I went to a local pet store and there was a customer in there who should have owned the place really....she was answering everyone's questions, standing in the middle of the store......she interupted the actual "workers" in the stinkin' store? WTF?

So I'm talking to the fish manager when she comes over and says "what seems to be the problem?" I say nothing at all just talking to the employee and the manager said "I can help you in a minute ma'am"......

She says "oh no I'm here to help customers"........so she starts spewing shit (I think she'd lost her mind, the poor wing nut) and she was talking about animals but it was so unintelligent that I couldn't tell you the phyco-babble she was saying......again....quite the wing nut.

Which brought me to first part of my blog......I say WTF? Can you say "Whack-A-Doodle"?

Come on people grow a brain and think, use the mush in your head and be intelligent....for god sakes where were you the day God handed out common sense? Near the back I'm guessing?

She was so loud and obnoxious and just plain out there.......not sure how long she'd been there but when I left 2 employee's were discussing something with her? Maybe she'd been done wrong?

Friday

Its Friday...yeah!

I still have nothing to blog about but wanted to say Hi!

Although I have a womping headache.....I think I need more chocolate?

I would blog but.....

I won't...

It has not been a good day, it started off rotten and it is going to end rotten........

But tomorrow is payday....things are looking up!

Mama needs a new pair of shoes.............

Oh Boy!

So last week my DD and DH were sitting at the kitchen table working on her homework, she was reading.......the English language can be quite difficult when you try to teach a child the ins and outs of the words and their sounds.

I'm in the office on the computer and I hear her say "a-a-a-a-a I can't say that word", DH says "yes you can, sound it out a-a-a-a-a".

She says "Daddy I can't say that word", DH asks "why not, just sound it out, say the word".

I begin to snicker because the sentence is making sense to me and I say "Guys the "S" sounds like a "Z" for that word"

DD says "a-a-a-a-a-a-"s""s"s" {in a z sound} and she yells AS, the word is is AS


Yes the word is AS not ASS, ASS has 2 "s's".......

Daddy begins to laugh, he just got it!

Panty Life

How long do you keep your panties? When do they get old to you?

This morning I had to throw out 2 pairs and in my world 2 pairs is a lot, I now need to open my new pack :o)

What did it for me was when I was brushing my teeth and they went roll, roll, roll down over my belly and almost fell off, why wear them then? Geesh! I had to run in and change them, what a terrible feeling to have them rolling downward.

The next pair did the same thing as soon as I stood up, what the ......?

Yep the newbies fit much better they still have elastic in them :o)

Just call me an M&M

Did you know I have a hard shell surrounding me? Did you? Yeah you probably already did, but let me tell you something shocking......I didn't....not to the extent that I've been informed it is?

I brushed it off before to me just being me.

Well recently I've had a professional explain it to me, a professional broke it down for me.

Did you know that the reason people come to me (my family) for help and assistance and guidance is because I can be trusted to get it done?

Did you know the reason I am signed up for just about everything going and involved in so many things is because people know I can get the job done?

Did you know that the reason people ask me questions is because I am going to tell them the truth?

The reason I am the "go to girl" on every front is because I have the ability to Get R Done no matter at what cost it is to me?

Did you know that?

Well I did not. Why is this? Because of my family dynamics....who would have thought?

Basically I am the one person that when asked to do something (no matter that is) I will make sure it gets done and done well. This is why my parents know they can ask me to do anything or ask my opinion and I will tell them exactly like it is. This is why I have a family member call me when he needs bailed out of jail at 3am in the stinkin' morning! Because he knows I'll come for him.

But little do they know........I am basically an M&M candy....hard candy coated shell on the outside that won't melt in your hands and nothing but chocolate mush on the inside. You ask DH, I am so indecisive and have no clue what to really do, I get sick to my stomach, headaches, freak out, throw up when put in a decision making role. I'm nervous and have no absolute idea what the heck to do, I do my best and luckily I'm usually ok.......but if it blows up then I take complete responsibility and feel sick to my stomach, throw up and headache afterward because it was my fault it was all a mess........

Its a double edge sword to say the least.

I have been informed that people have absolutely NO idea that I cannot handle it because I don't let them know it. Even when I say "I don't know if I can do it" they brush me off and say "sure you can"......Apparently nobody has any clue I'm really like that because they don't see it. I did not know this....this is news to me.

I am hardest on myself, I end up losing out because of my turtle shell. I don't like to say no but a person can only do so much and thanks to my DH he makes me say no.

Bite My Dust

You know that song "Another One Bites the Dust"

I just heard it on the radio and it jogged my memory.....

This past weekend my DD and I are driving and this comes on and I start to sing it, she says "what does that song mean Mama", who bites dust?

So I take a big long sigh and say "well its a play on words....they like to play this song at wedding dances for the guys.......when men and women get married they like to tease the man about now he's tied down and the ol' ball and chain, its just people being funny, so they play this song that another one has bit the dust so to speak....I know this doesn't make sense right now but someday you'll say "oh ok"".......

How's that?

"Yeah mom I don't get it but someday I might find it funny"

What the heck am I going to do? Boy oh boy........

:o)

A-Choo!

So I've recently been set up to start Allergy shots! Great!

I am one of those people now.......

One of those people that when there is a potluck or work training session and they ask "are there any allergies" we need to be aware of I am "one of those" people who have to respond and people have to work the menu around me or I get to have a completely different menu.

I use to hate setting up meetings and such for these very people and now I'm one of them.

Darn it.

Talk about screwing people up, my food issue is not an allergy per say but an intollerance, so much so that if I have dairy products I am on the floor in pain so yes I cannot have cheese, milk, ice cream (such a killer).....

Tell me how many foods have dairy in them? How many foods are made with cheese alone?

A lot!

My allergy shots are for trees, pollen, dust mites, cat fur, cat pelt, and about 5 other items that are so miniscule you would just shake your head but let me tell you when I run into them they bring me down, way down.

My doctor says these shots are going to change all of that and boy do I hope so, I'm tired of itchy eyes, stuffed nose and feeling terrible.

Apparently that is why I've had sinusitus for 20 years. Go figure! Thanks for letting me know - finally!

Boy I can't wait to have those shots, did I mention I hate needles and when this starts I need to go for 22 weeks straight once per week for a shot, then it will lessen after that but oh great! Yeah me!

Manic Monday

Remember that song by the Bangles, I loved that song, it was on the radio this morning and I can't help but want to sing along. DD said "what is this song mama"......

Oh baby its such a fun and true song......Manic Monday is just that get up and go to work or school and it means the weekend is over.

I love weekends Mama!

I do to baby, I do to!

Fridays

I love Friday, it is one of my favourite days of the week, ahead of Saturday even.

Friday night is best of all. Although due to my busy schedule on Saturday & Sunday my Friday night is a bit tight.

Groceries, and all other pick ups need to be done tonight!

Its a pain in the arse but it has to be done if I want the rest of the weekend to go smooth.

Sunday is a total write off day. DD will be going on her first hike with her Sparks troop and she is so excited, although they are calling for Hurricane Kyle (I think) to hit and it will be pouring she is fine with that, a hike in the woods it is, roasting marshmellows at Brown Owl's camp and singing songs.

She asked me if I wanted to go on Sunday, parents are invited as well......honestly NO I don't want to go, will I go, hmmm haven't decided yet but I'm sure you can figure out I'm not thrilled on the thought of hiking through the woods on a rainy day.

I guess I will wait and see if she brings it up again? Maybe yes? Maybe No?

I wish I were an Etch-A-Sketch

If I were an Etch-A-Sketch, I would be able to shake my head to forget and/or erase.....

My name
My day at work
This week
My wardrobe
What I've said
What I've done
Showing Emotions
Getting upset
Freaking Right O-U-T
Answering that phone at all
Picturing Lindsay Lohan and her new love interest
The fact that I said something very rude this morning before I left the house
That I woke up on my side of the bed but it didn't seem to be the right side?
Getting on the scales this week
For agreeing to my schedule for the weekend - UGH!
Britney Spears
My to-do list
That I watched that stupid show last night
What I just saw in the office next to me
The person who was just in my office
and the invoices sitting on my desk right now.

What would you Etch-A-Sketch away?

Another Day Another Dollar Down

Last week while driving into work I noticed a small chip in our windshield, I said "we should get that fixed right away", DH says "no wait it may never go any where", I said "uh huh yeah sure Einstein, you said that the last time".

Yesterday, as we were getting to school DD says "Hey look at the windshield mama", as you know I was totally out to lunch yesterday morning and its a wonder I even was dressed yesterday from head to toe!

A HUGE crack straight up the centre of the windshield, from what you ask? From the damn "chip" that DH said "probably won't go anywhere anyway".....yeah you dumb ass!

So I say "hey! We did this last year and I bought insurance when I did it", so I look it up and call Speedy to inquire, they guy says "that was for chips in the windshield, you should have called us last week and it would have been FREE! ha, ha"..

Yeah, ha, F'in HA! I'm thinking..........so I repeat buddies comment "would have been FREE huh, if only we'd called LAST WEEK! Yes but your not married to my dumb ass husband who said it probably wouldn't GO ANYWHERE!"

Speedy guy says "yep and I'm lucky to not be him right now aren't I? He's right beside you isn't he?"

Yep your correct!

So they picked it up and took it away by lunch time they delivered it back, nothing $20 didn't fix, but let me just REMIND you all.............

LAST WEEK IT WOULD HAVE BEEN FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Mondays

Are always hard, hard to get up, hard to get going, hard to deal with, just hard.

Come to think of it Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday are something like that too.

This morning I was awake before the alarm went off, since I slept in yesterday AND had an afternoon nap I was well rested. Mind you those seem to be the hardest days of all. For whatever reason the morning routine fell apart, time was not on my side. It was 7:19 before I knew it and we were off to the races!

I do not recall the drive in one little bit (I wasn't driving either so you can rest assure). I don't remember sitting in traffic, the weather report went right past me, my DD in the back seat singing at the top of her lungs, nope didn't hear that either....Where was I? Not one clue, I'm not even sure I was thinking at all.

My thought process is totally null and void today.

I know that I have my newly put together page kits on my mind, I so want to go home tonight and put one together but OMG the minute I think of that my heart begins to race, the other things that have to get tonight are so much higher on the priority list.....eek!

So I am doubtful that scrapbooking will happen but I am certain that supper time, homework time, reading, lunches and bath time will come no matter what!

So I've decided my only goal for tonight will be either spend 30 mins on Wii Fit or go for a 20 minute brisk walk.

Fingers crossed one of these items will really, really happen :o)

Happy Monday All! I know I'm not alone on this HARD day!

Tag UR it!

My friend Tracey tagged me and I thought it looked fun. Here we go:

THE FIVE TAG


10 years ago I:
1. Was a full fledged Blonde
2. Had very long hair
3. Played Women’s Basketball
4. Played Co-Ed softball
5. Did not have children

5 things on today's "to do" list:
1. Scrapbook
2. Golf for the first time
3. Change my work voice mail
4. Meet some new co-workers
5. Watch TV

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Chips
2. Guacamole
3. Chocolate
4. Popcorn
5. M&M’s

5 things I would do if I were a millionaire:
1. Own a home on the lake in Vermont
2. Invest some
3. Take many trips (London, Hawaii, Russia, Germany)
4. Pay debts
5. do it right so I don’t have to work again

5 places I have lived:
1. Zealand, NB
2. Fredericton, NB
3. Tay Creek, NB
4. n/a
5. n/a (sad isn’t it)

Five jobs I have had:
1. Lumply
2. McFadzen Holdings
3. Jacques Whitford
4. Government
5. Delivered Daily Gleaners

I tag...
Whoever wants to and
1. Jeanette
2. Lesley
3.
4.
5.

Rules: Each player answers the question themselves. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blog and leaves them a comment letting them know that they've been tagged and asking them to read your blog. Let the person that tagged you know when you've answered the questions on your blog.

Difference

I am shocked at the difference in my daughter, she has shocked me to pieces.

Last year this child refused to read, write or do anything associated with homework, sounding out a word was a terrible task and would cause her to hit the floor and flail. Too bad for her when mom & dad walked away and she ended up having to do the damn work in the end and sometimes twice in order to teach her lesson, or did it?

There were times last year that I didn't think this child would ever enjoy reading, writing and literacy. oh Boy!

This year, we have a whole new little girl, this child loves, loves, loves homework. Teachers send all the homework home for the week, doesn't matter how or when you do it but it is due on Fridays. Last night my kid, who amazes me all the time wanted to do it all, all of it, then she said "I can't wait to do more tomorrow night mom".

"huh what did you do with my child that hated homework, where'd she go, please don't return her because this one is awesome!".....

I have to admit I am so proud of my daughter, she is so smart, do you know she loves math and science? Whats up with that? That little nerd loves math? Geez....Kudos to her that this stuff comes easy, it never did for me, and that is why when it comes to math homework its not my job because Hubby has already stipulated I am NOT allowed to help her with adding 2+2 and you know what, I'm fine with that.

Randomness

• DD had her first ever spelling test on Friday and made 100%
• DD realized on Friday that practice really does make perfect
• I finally got to wear my pretty dress last night
• No therapy session beats just a few hours out with the girls
• Laughing is contagious
• You can never hide from cameras, they are everywhere
• Nursing 2 hang overs in one week - I'm too old for that shit
• My co-workers are a ton of fun
• My presentation was really good and beneficial
• Gas prices really suck
• I need groceries (nope I did not go get them in my pretty dress last night)
• I am really tired
• I just slept 10 hours and made myself get up
• My back is hurting
• Must call April today
• I need more team players for next weekend - UGH
• We now have a fiddle in the house
• Fiddle isn't so bad in the house
• It makes DD smile when its in her hands
• Lessons start next week
• Sparks is fun
• Loving School makes me very happy
• Homework is easier too
• I need to Scrapbook - TODAY
• I hate rain
• I love the leaves changing color
• I want outdoor family pics taken this year
• I am doing absolutely NOTHING today!!!!!!! Except going to my Scrapbook room - maybe?

Smooth

This is a note for the guy behind me on Main Street this morning who decided to primp on his way to work this morning all the while riding my ass.

This sales man decided to shave his face the entire time we sat in traffic, all the time jolting forward as he paused from his electric shaver to move ahead after people honked their horns.

A sales man you ask? How do I know?

He had a used car with the sign in the front window 2005 $6,700. I do not know the company but he was a salesman, hell he could be the owner but why would you choose to drive in the 2005, you sell nothing newer?

At one point I was ready to jump out go back and shove the electric shaver down his f'ing throat, if he had of rear-ended me he would have had his throat slit with a dull electric shaver before the cops arrived!

Don't be f'in shaving while driving in traffic, they talk about cell phones but applying mascara, eyeliner or shaving have got to be WAY worse? Idiot!

Blows!

You know when you’ve got that “should’ve known better” line?

Yeah I should have known better but I didn’t, I never do, I never learn, but in my defense who cares.

Is anyone keeping up on the US Election? What do you think of Governor Phalin? She is the one from Alaska who Senator Johnny Mac (as Rosie lovingly refers to him as) we call him John McCain, has chosen as his running mate.

First I am happy a woman was chosen, Obama should have done the same but whatever! I guess?

Phalin has a 4 mth old downs syndrome baby, her 17 year old daughter is 5 mths pregnant, she has 5 children in total.

The press has said “how is she going to help run the country and have her 5 children?”. First she has a child headed to Iraq so I’m going to assume he’s probably self sufficient? The other children are older you dumb ass!

People are judging her based on the fact she is a WOMAN with CHILDREN. Oh my god no!

Why is it when a woman runs for a high power position it is questioned how she would run it but when a man takes over there is no question on his capabilities? Even though he too ends up screwing everything up?

That Blows Man! No doubt its still a man’s world but let me tell you this……

Women can run the country, birth 5 children, have a husband and still run the country very well thank you, lets’ not forget Women can multi-task and men cannot so I say to those who question a woman’s ability – FU Buddy!

New Year, New Rules

Lets just say that once you pass the threshold of Kindergarten your on your own after that.

This morning was nothing like last year at all. We ended up on the playground, not going straight to the classroom which doesn't make much sense to me, we arrived early and was 40 minutes before we left because we stood around and waited, and waited. I have no idea what the thought process was but it was chaotic to say the least.

My baby girl was up before we were, bouncing in her room, had her bed made before we woke up then came in and jumped on us, ate breakfast and then we got there, she was behind us hiding. She said "awful lot of kids here", I laughed and said "yep its a school honey".

I now sit here thinking, what is she doing? Has she made new friends? Is she scared? Alone? Happy? Sad? Hurt?

I know I sound foolish to some but these are the thoughts going through my head at this moment.

I love her so very much and when she goes through something new I get all antsy and nervous while my husband says "stop it, she'll be fine, stop worrying"...yes I'll stop worrying as soon as pigs begin to fly there Mr. StoneFace! Give me a break will ya, I'm her mom and I only want the very absolute bestest for my girl.

On another note, my friend is headed to Saint John today for a biopsy and to have a shunt put in, she won't be able to keep contact with everyone so Julie is my ears for the next few days. I predict the surgury will not be until sometime tomorrow and I ask everyone to keep her in your thoughts and prayers.

What is Normal?

I am asking myself am I normal? No probably not but what is normal anyway?

Am I normal sometimes? Are you normal sometimes? Does anyone know what that is?

How do we guage what is suppose to be "normal"? From our teachings in life right?

How do we know what we are teaching our children is right? At what point is it wrong? Who made it wrong, if other people are doing and its wrong, why are "they" doing it? Is it so wrong to them? Apparently not?

Who decided long ago there is right and wrong? Adam & Eve? She was told not to touch the apple, she did, she was wrong, but she did it anyway, she eventually hooked back up with Adam.....how wrong was it? Adam got over it?

Life is Hard

"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."

Author: Maya Angelou

This is my new motto, since I'm in a constant crisis mode and have decided my new title is "Little Miss Fix it All" I've decided this quote above says it all.

Hubby and I have surmised (sp?) that instead of every village needs an idiot my family is the village of idiots!

I know harsh but damn I guess my mother needed all 5 times to get it right, practice does make perfect!

Why is people don't think? Logically I mean, why don't people ask questions, get answers and WHY the hell do they ask the biggest village idiot of all then tell me I'm wrong?

Hello? Why do you run to me when life gets tough? Cuz little ol' Miss Fix it All will come to the rescue and get R done!

So since I explained how Little Miss Fix it All operates and that when I speak you do as I tell you do to and everything will go according to plan life improves.

Damn people, once you realize seeing things my way is the best way we'll all get along!

Life is Short

So the roller coaster of life continues at our home, I hate roller coasters and I'm ready to get off!

First off, I blame the stress I'm under for me getting a head cold and I feel terrilbe I've missed 2 days of work because of it. Good grief it sucks when you cannot breath!

Secondly what do you do when your best friend tells you the doctors think she has brain cancer? Yeah what do say to that? ........my thoughts exactly. What did I end up doing? I told her to remember they diagnosed her with 4 other major things that they ended up being wrong with so there are higher chances they are wrong again....although in your own mind you've been kind of wondering it all along..........that was Friday, today it was found out from her spinal fluid that she does NOT have cancerous cells (Hallehleulah - sp?) Thank you God!

Although that does not end the story here.........Doctors have confessed today that they have not one sweet clue what she has and is going to go to Saint John possibly next week. In the meantime, she can go home and get her kids off to school. Even though she has a mother of a headache from her 2nd lumbar puncture and they are "hoping" it will subside.....um yeah subside......the woman can't sit up...but whatever, she can lay in her own bed at home for that matter!

The doctor is so stumped that he went ahead and sent all of her tests to Halifax as well, he doesn't think SJ will have any better ideas than he has had so he sent them ahead and wants a consult from those doctors as well. Her brain is still swollen, the fluid won't stop building up and they have no clue. When she goes to SJ they will do a brain biospy and put a shunt in at the same time. Scray I know but it has to be done.

Then to top off my sick, stressed out week it has come to light that my neice might be coming to live with me, I can't give any details yet and I don't want to discuss why but I'm hoping she does. When she was little (like 4) she said to me one night "Aunt I wish you were my mommy". I said "I wish I was too honey"..........

So its been quite a week already and its only Tuesday, wow!

Whine, Whine.......

I'm sick! Well I'm getting there.

I wonder if its because I've been into the germ infested hospital too much, I swear I cleaned my hands going in and coming out, didn't touch anything I didn't have to......

I'll just bet!

Either way my head hurts, my neck is sore, my back is achy and I'm so tired.

Whine, whine........I want to go home..........I don't feel good......I hate summer colds.

Stong Enough to Bend?

Ok so I've had a very stressful past month and I thought it was calming down but as of late last ngiht that is not the case at all.

Remember I've written about my friend and how they keep saying she has this and that and not to worry, she'll be ok and then she isn't?

Well were back to a tumour! My god please people this is crazy! They told her she was going to be going home and now this afternoon I called and she can't see again and her head is pounding and they have ordered an emergency lumbar puncture, she is in terrible pain and scared to death!

I just want to scream at these people, the MRI type test (more specific) was suppose to happen sooner but the Dr. (specialist no less) messed up the order and such and other things (I'm not 100% of that story) and it didn't happen on Monday as scheduled.

I am convinced that today is the day they notify her that she does have a tumour. I'm basically preparing myself for that news, I need to be somewhat prepared for that call because I need to move forward in order to be able to handle the emotions she is going to go through.

Life isn't fair, makes you wonder how and why these things happen to the people they do. Plus, you never think it could be you or you, or you or me! But it can be, just as easily as it is my friend.

BTW, I agreed 2 weeks ago if it is a tumour I'd shave my head with her - yeah it was a "make her happy" decision, I'm kind of regretting that now? I wonder if the halloween bald mask would fool her?

It might be a stinkin' cold winter? Bring toques!

Boys R Dumb, even little boys....

April has always said she thought I hated little boys and I would laugh and say "stop it I don't hate little boys but they aren't my favourite"......Well my view has sinced changed as of yesterday. I dislike boys very much.

Our T-Ball party was yesterday and we have only one family that I dread, mom is useless and refuses to even help out when I ask for volunteers, she has 5 boys but only the youngest is on the team but every single week at least 2 others come with her and these boys climb on the fences, right up to the top of the back stop, I've kicked them off over and over and one week I went over and said "do you boys not understand English? Get off the backstop and do not go near the fences EVER!, stay off MY field!" as all the parents stood there and their mother, what did she do? Absolutely nothing. Other parents make comments about these kids being so unruly.

And I want to point out that her boy who is on the team is just fine, other than asking tons of questions and begging for his brothers to have an "at bat" he is an eager player, runs hard and has learned a lot this year. {see I can find the good in some boys}

Well yesterday she brought all 5 boys ranging from 5 - 16 and to top it all off she brought another family of 3 children (boys too) with her to a T-Ball Team FAMILY Fun Day! WTF? These kids did not play, and their mother.....um yeah just as useless and a PITA as the other one.

The family with the kid who didn't play that oldest boy; as we set up to watch the year end DVD of the kids sat in front of the TV that was in the back of our van, yeah dummy how is everyone else going to see the screen if your butt is in front of it. Hubby went over and moved him 3 times, yes I said 3 not once but 3 times....ok are ya dense or what?

Oh I could never be a teacher! I spent all afternoon fighting these kids off of myself and the other kids and my god bring food out and the "crows" came...these boys I seriously believe did not get any food yesterday but what we fed them, now only one child played this year and her other 4 boys PLUS the other 3 she brought with her went foolish, I mean come on?

When the Pinata came out I thought I would Hemorrhage. We were only allowing the ball team children to hit the pinata but the other children also would get candy well hubby was literally holding them back, just these kids from the 2 families, the other children, whose parents looks after their children or CARE what their kids do - these kids sat patiently on the bench for their turn....oh those sweet children - who I might add were boys too!

In my defence we had boys on the team this year, girls were the majority but we did have boys and the boys on my team overall were sweet little boys who listened and did very well, I was very proud of all of my team. Some of these kids have real potential if they keep it up.

Please parents if your kid is on a team or doing something where there are volunteer parents, for god sakes offer to help, keep your kid at bay, remove him from the chaos, when you have 20+ kids on a field and your goal is to teach and keep all children safe you don't need that bad seed pinching, hitting, pushing or whacking other kids......my god I was so glad when it was all over.

To top it all off the dense boy I speak of that his family came and didn't even play.....yeah he came over and said "can I have a movie too", I said "were you on the team?" He stared at me with his mouth open, so I repeated my question "were you on the team {pause} no you weren't move on its time for everyone to leave, party's over".......like OMG you want a movie of other children playing T-Ball? I just shook my head. Hubby said "they just came for the free stuff anything they could get their hands on".........

Its NOT a tumour

I just got word that my friend does not have a tumour, well it is but its not benign.

She has whats called a 'Pseudotumour Cerebri', info about it is....

Pseudotumour cerebri literally means "false brain tumour." It is likely due to high pressure caused by the buildup or poor absorption of cerebrospinal fluid in the subarachnoid space surrounding the brain. The disorder is most common in women between the ages of 20 and 50. Symptoms of pseudotumour cerebri, which include headache, nausea, vomiting, and pulsating intracranial noises, closely mimic symptoms of brain tumours.

I am so relieved and was in tears when she told me, her biggest hurddle is she must lose weight, it is a must, must, must or she could lose her vision.

They are keeping her the weekend to keep an eye on her and make sure her meds are going to keep the spinal fluid from building up in her brain, she should be able to control it with meds but if not she requires to have the shunt put in, which she does not want, it is very dangerous to have, especially living on a remote island.

My belly is doing flip flops and my eyes are stinging, I've been in such a state for 2 weeks that even this information makes me so happy.

Thanks to those of you who inquired and gave me a ear to talk to.

what the?

OMG! It happened again!

Today at lunch I'm driving down Prospect Street, I look over and see this kid from the front seat starring at me and talking to me, he was oh maybe about 3 years old.

I looked a little more (all the while driving down Prospect St at lunch time) to see this little boy sitting on some guys knee!

Yes you read that right a 3 year old in the front seat on some guys knee and the kicker - No seatbelt on either one.

Buddy was holding a Tim's coffee in the other hand, with the one hanging out the window.

Hows that for ya?

Losing Time

I know some of you will be shocked at this but.......lateley................I've been running behind, late even for different events, not having what I need when I get there because I'd forgotten it.

I know crazy huh?

I figure this must have something to do with my age, or not eating properly or just too much going on and everyone coming at me from all angles? Not sure but I knew some of you would be suprised to hear this.

The sun, where is the sun, I'm dying here. I need sun, our vacation was completely ruined because of no sun. Not fair that 2 entire weeks was sucky.

Last night I whined and went on about having nothing to eat, I'm tired of trying to figure out what to eat all over again, there is so much of what I ate before that has dairy in it. I'm frustrated. I'm thinking I may have to visit a dietician to straighten that out? I'm sleepy from the stinkin' weather and I feel I'm at the end of my rope in so many other facets of life.

When will the insanity stop? This weekend I'm going to be lazy, no camping for us, heck I'd be stupid to attempt that again!

Sunday is our T-ball party for 2 hours I can manage that but Friday and Saturday are going to be do nothing days - nothing I say! Well sleep and eat. :o)

Proud as Punch

Last night my older group of T Ball kids went to Burtts Corner to play ball against their kids. Well I was a little leary of how well our kids had the whole ball concept and able to play a game.

Needless to say, even though we were short a few the kids were amazing and most of the parents were shocked as well, our kids really have it down, they played very well (to the best of their ability).

I am very proud of them and I wanted to make sure you knew how proud I am. These kids amaze me every single week with their talents.

Way 2 Go Team!

Who, What, Where to now?

I had an amazingly wet weekend camping out but I have to say its been one of the best weekends of camping ever.

We went with another couple who have a little girl a year younger than ours and they played together so well that we were just amazed, there was no tattling, to crying, no body trying to up the other, it was amazing these girls played together for 3 hours straight in our camper no less and we had to keep checking on them because they were so quiet, every now and again a giggle would break out on them but they were good as gold.

The other mom & dad said they were amazed as well as their usual camping friends have a boy and the 2 just do not see eye to eye.

Our girls played so well together that is was 11 pm before we even notied it and then one would come stumbling out to say "I'm tired, I need to go to bed"...I know another crazy act but that is how it was. We agreed to camp together again and again.

Upon my return home this weekend I had a message on my phone from my friend saying "hi, I'm back in the hospital, I can't see again, call me".

Yes! Flippin' great! My friend is back in the hospital and cannot see and they feel all of the fluid has come back within 24 hours, they are keeping her, today will mean a lot more tests, they are discussing sending her to Saint John and she could end up having some sort of surgury by weeks end. They are talking about having a shunt put in, now with her living on that god for saken island with a shunt, I'm sorry not a shunt and stint {what the hell do I know, this is all new to me} she can run into a lot of troubles, infections are typical with this device. Do you have any idea how secluded they are down there? Very MUCH!

So its still touch and go for her and we still have no answers. She is feeling very down and is scared to death, if she is in Saint John she is far away from me and her family, although some of her "island family" has agreed to go down. I'm just so beside myself, why plan a surgury when you have no idea what is going on? Damn Doctors!

Last night while talking she said "if I need brain surgury will you come down before it and say it good-bye".......I was like "what the hell is wrong with you? Smarten the hell up! I was pretty upset by that". She is already talking about not coming out of surgury, she is planning for the worst and so I gave her a little peice of my mind and the fact that her odds are good and she'd better change her tune or else.

What the hell is going on here? I feel like I'm in the Twilight Zone?

Nuts!

Its been quite a week to say the least, a test of many things.

The good news is my friend does not have a tumor, they ruled that out yesterday through a lumbar puncture and yes they are extremely painful, she was in a lot of pain last night, they kept her overnight for observation. The bad news was she had a large amount of "extra" or built up fluid on her brain causing the swelling and pressure so they removed a huge amount, which in my opinion seemed to be a little too much but it certainly explained the brain cracking headache she had.

I spent a few hours in the hospital with she and her hubby last evening and I'm confident I kept their mind off of the obvious stress they are experiencing. Between trying to get her hubby to pick through the "soiled linen's" bin and figuring out how we could make her bed in a tent (since she was in the hall), and then promising to tickle her she was laughing at least and forgot about the pain at some parts.

Now she gets a little nasty when her hubby and I get going.......we were trying to diagnose others in there, we were convinced one guy has sleep apnea (sp?) his convulsing gave it away. One lady had the sheriff coming for her but in the end they took her up to "the floor" from what we heard. Being beside the nurses station is very informative. Also when the "customer service" is unbelieveable, we had every single nurse (who let me say were all super nice to us) ask each time they went by if my friend was ok, they ordered extra dope for her and everything. None for us, we tried. :o)

In the end, test results are not in yet but this fluid they removed is very important and it is being tested for everything and (fingers crossed) it will explain a lot of things and remove a lot of doubt.

She is headed home today, (home, home) and that is a good thing, she misses her kids and she is going to be sore and have her headache for a little longer.

I am so thankful she is in my life and that I have her, the thought of almost losing her was too much to bear. You have no idea how many times it crossed my mind this week that I wish she and I were "blood sisters" but just having her is good enough.

SAD

I am very sad these days. My brain is so consumed with what might happen and what will happen and how are we going to deal with it.

Since late November my best friend has been battling some sort of virus and sickness. It was initially thought she was just fatigued, many doctors checked her out.

We have feared it was MS all along.

It appears that it may very well be MS now. From yesterday she has had 3 doctors look at her and a couple more sometime today or tomorrow. Her first appt was with her eye doctor who discovered her brain is swelling and putting pressure on her optic nerve, from there he took action and the ball has started to roll fast.

It appears the MS is agressive from what she has been told by that eye doctor and others since. Although back in May the doctors said they could not confirm or deny it was MS she would have to wait for it progress before they could be certain.

I'm sorry but that totally makes no sense to me. Many a nights we've been on the phone discussing why, how come, what for, they cannot diagnose it with science and technology today how the hell can they not confirm it?

I've shed tears and I know she will read this eventually and she will know how I feel about it.

She is 32, a young mother of 3 children young children who has her entire life ahead of her. I told her this is just a glitch that we will overcome together and once she can start to get meds this will help a lot.

Although the kicker to this story is they do not have any health insurance.

All I can say to this is we will figure something out, the money will be collected and found one way or another, I've already started to consider what fundraisers could be worked on.

She is scared, worried and the unknown outcome is the worst but with people around who love her and will protect her and take care of her she will come through this, stronger and better than ever!

Please everyone say a prayer for her and give her the strength she needs to get through this week and next and from then on.

Respect

I know this is going to sound so "jessie" from BB 10 but I'm sick and tired of not getting any respect! What does a person have to do, stand on my head and spit quaters, PhD maybe?

This entire weekend has been nothing but a downer, first my mom's family messed up plans and then tried to pin them on me, yeah I'm the one who still has my memory their senior citizens.......lets not forget that! Oh right, you forgot! Then they laughed about it and didn't even say they were sorry, oh thats right because that word doesn't exsist in your dictionary.

I've got a 6 year old who thinks she 16 and acts like it. Well that got squashed super fast because I was pissed! Every eye roll, every talk back, anything close to disrespect bought her a one way ticket to her room for 6 minutes. After about 1 hour of that she figured out that she best turn her frown upside down and a little less talk was good for her future of freedom!

Then today, oh today, today did it! I let her go nextdoor to grammy's house, when she came back I put her in the shower and she said to me "I was watching a show with auntie where a man was having his birthday and he was trying to figure out how to kill himself".

I said "what?", so she repeated it. You watched that next door? With Auntie? What? Really?

So I said "I'll be right back" and went to call them on the phone, and she said "yeah", I said "I would rather she not watch big people shows with that type of content, next time turn the channel or turn it off, that would make me a happy camper - ok?"

Get this she says in a condescending voice "yeah". I almost flipped my lid. I am still so very upset. The last person in this world whom I figured would do my child wrong did.

Am I over-reacting? Really am I?

I just don't think watching that is necessary when your 6, why subject a little person to that? Why add to the already jumbled thoughts in their head over stuff?

Honestly, did I over-react? Be honest.

Frustration

Here's a tip!

When making plans with someone, you should ensure you've confirmed them! AUGH!

I have a family in town from Ontario, my mom had me make arrangements to have dinner with them at a restaurant, so I called and I tried to make plans, gave her options, she said "alright", I said "call me back, let me know what you decide".

She said "whats your phone number"

I gave it to her.

no call, no call, no call, no call

Mom is puzzled and I am not suprised! Time passes and I say screw that, I'll make my own plans.

Lo and behold they go to the restaurant, can't figure out why we aren't there, then they go to the "other suggested" restaurant and my god we aren't there either and they can't imagine why?

Why? Cuz you couldn't pin down for sure which restaurant YOU wanted to go to! That is why you took my phone number SO YOU COULD CALL ME BACK!

Stupid people make me angry! Its worse when they are related.

Behind Bars

Last night I heard one of the worst stories in my life. I know someone in prison right now, a women's prison at that.

The other day there was a lock down. It was medication day and they were lined up, the person I know was #3 in line.

#1 went in received methadone, #2 went in and received methadone but under her chair was chip bag, she grabbed it on the way by (keep in mind they are hand cuffed the entire time)

#3 goes in, gets meds

They walked all 3 back down to their cells.

(DISCLAIMER GROSS CONTENT - NOT FOR THE WEAK)

#2 lady throws up her methadone into the chip bag and gives it to #1 who drank it.

Hence the reason for lock down. They tore the cells apart, of what little are in them. I have to say its scary as hell and this one story is enough for me to say no thank you!

Kids

I have to shake my head sometimes at kids and their parents.

Why is it when we buy a gun we need to fill out paperwork, or when we learn to drive we need to write a test? Build a house, we need a permit, we the people need to verify and be "approved" to do whatever we do but for reasons beyond me nobody requires approval to have children!

It does make me wonder. The other night at practice this one child who creates a lot of havoc from time to time; every time the kid was told to stop his belly would hurt, the kid did this last week. Its a step up from last year when he cried every single time. But this kid starts everything. There were 2 of them last night grabbing and hitting back and forth, I caught them and in my drill sargeant voice said "get atta that, I don't want to catch you too hitting on this field ever again, you got me". They both just looked at me and said "yes", I turned my back and one of them took his glove and WHACK! Smacked the other in the head!

I went over and that was that, took his hand and sat him on the side! They were warned and told what would happen, the kid says "my belly hurts", I said "you'll get over it, if you puke, don't puke on yourself, you are being punished for not listening and hitting someone else, that is not nice at all, that kid is your team mate".

You know what he said "I don't like him". I went back over and sat down beside him and said "big deal, there are going to be kids who don't like you either, do you want them to hit you in the head?", kid says "well no", I say "then why is it ok for you to hit in the head?", kid says "its not". I say "thats right, you have no right to hurt someone else, you don't want to get hurt and neither do they, if you don't like them then don't go near them, you got into trouble for something you did, not him, you hit him because YOU don't like him, are ya havin' fun sitting here?", he says "no". I say "you sit here, I'll be back for you, think about what you did and how you can do better".

This kid has a lot going on in life and its sad, I know this but for heaven's sake, stop bringing problems on yourself at the very least!

Its that ol "your own worst enemy" syndrome.

In the end when I went over the kid apologized and I asked what was learned, kid says "I shouldn't hit people unless they hit first". I said "get out on the field and go play".

Hey! He wasn't totally wrong? I gotta give him kudos for at least figuring out that, right?

5'O clock Somewhere!

All Hail the Margarita!

I decided this afternoon while hubby had a nap that it was time to visit Maragaritaville and so I did, I put on some tunes for my daughter and I and I made her virgin Margarita's and some real ones for mama.

She even got umbrella's too, we both had 3 and man they hit the spot! Its been a great afternoon.

Ahhhh, its was vacation is all about! I love that its got to be 5'O clock somewhere at any given time.

Money Honey

Oh What Fun we had shopping in the USA. We nabbed some amazing deals, I basically went to get back to school clothes and boy did I ever! For $150 USD we purchased 2 pairs of sneakers (Skechers no less) and 5 complete outfits plus one extra Taylor Swift t-shirt that I was told "mama I have to have it, its Taylor!", who could resist that?

I have to laugh, I don't know how many of you know what the store Mardens is like but its a store that buys out other stores merchandise, its a warehouse type, dark, dingy, dirty and mostly junk. In Brewer, Maine (10 mins from Bangor) they have a huge Mardens and everyone, just about everyone raves about it, well I've never had much luck for finding anything in there because its so dark, dingy and dirty. Not this one (as much) and we were there early so the crowd was minimal. We bought a 30 pack of DVD-R for $6.99, just the other day we bought 10 for $11, I also bought candy for our upcoming Halloween camping trip where the kids trick or treat, we need 200 treats and I found burger gummies (and they were soft). I almost bought a purse but one side had the seams ripped out of it (darn it). Our greatest find was Skechers flip flops, my DD begged us to buy them for her at JC Penny & Kohl's they were $29.99 (not bloodly likey am I going to pay $30 for flip flops my dear).....well in to Mardens you'll never guess how much they were..................never! They were $6.99 exact same! I know, I was tickled pink and so was my child.

I bought myself a lovely new bathing suit that was $60 for $34, it looks like Scrapbook paper, shame I'll never SB it unless its on someone else :o)

The food was amazing but how could it not be? At The Texas Roadhouse we had rib eye steak, rack of ribs, baked sweet potatoe and to top it all off a Jamacian Cowboy Margarita! Oh I wish I could have it right now......*sigh*. Of course we had some Dominos Pizza as well, can't go to a city that has Domino's and not have it, mind you since my diagnosis of dairy intolerance I hadn't had pizza (over 1 month) so I took 2 lactaid pills and went to town on that pizza, I had 3 whole pieces and cheesy bread, guess what those lactaid pills are my saving grace........dang that pizza was good and without pain.......

So there is the Money Honey! A mini-vacation away was well worth it!

Most Shocking

Happened yesterday around supper time, we had been on-line and we recently re-aquired voicemail with our new phone service packaging.

My baby girl was next door at grammy's house and was trying to call home, so she pulled a hang up yelling "Grammy they didn't pick up", she eventually came home to ask what she needed to ask.

When I got off the internet and picked up the phone to hear the beep, beep, beep I went on to hear the message, then for fun I pressed *5*, the number who says who is calling and what time (I did it because I was wondering how close was it to her going over to her calling, most times there is not much time in between the two).

As I did this the time, number and then the voice.....the voice that came on and said whose phone it was.....the voice was my Father-in-Law's voice, the man who passed away 6 years ago this November. I went through and listened again, then again, and then one last time.

I heard his voice, it made my stomach flop over. My heart came up into my throat, it made my jaw hit my chest.

The idea of hearing a dead persons voice, someone who you've dreamt about hearing speak again. It was amazing.

When my husband came back into the house I warned him and had him listen to it as well, he said "save that", he turned pretty green listening to it, it was the greatest thing ever.

Vacation - Day #1

6am - woke up - listened to the news, remembered it was Monday, freaked out, then hubby informed me we are on vacation, couldn't go back to sleep.

6:20 - sitting at the computer, surfing!

7:15 - My girl wakes up and announces she must have food - 1 granola bar, keep surfing

7:30 - make bacon, eggs, french toast and pancakes

8:30 - off to the basement to clean it OUT!

11:00 - emerge from basement dirty, dusty and can't breath - nice first day!

12:10 - watch the view with a diet coke - ahhhhh

2:00 - shower - ahhh feels good

2:30 - off to Freddy Beach to drop off all of our junk to Value Village and run errands

7:00 - home again

9:45 - present - surfing the net, what else is new.

Day 1 down, only 13 more to go....hmmm what to do, what to do? I need to avoid working and I need to do more playing......suggestions?

Coach is sore

Last night was practice and I worked pretty hard.

Our kids won't run, they haven't got the concept of when you hit that ball you'd better be running or your gonna get OUT! O-U-T!

So last night I decided to get the each group to hit the ball and run and I threatened to get them out, of course nobody got out and everyone got to hit but I chased them around all the bases, each and everyone of them. I'm talking chasing them with the ball saying "you'd better run, run fast, I'm gonna get you, run, run, run" the entire way around the bases, its a long haul try it sometime. :o)

At one point I was bent over, heaving trying to catch my breath from the heat and the exercise that one of the dads who was standing on first base said "you want me to chase them"? I was so relieved I told him I loved him! I was dying out there.

I'm going to have tag them out next time and I'm sure that sitting on the bench will "learn" them to run!

With having Wii Fit and doing that for 2 nights straight then running all that way last night I got into bed last night and was very sore, this morning I'm not real bad but I know when I cough or laugh there are parts that hurt that I didn't expect to?

Sweat it Out

Mama just bought the last Wii Fit at the Super Store!!!

A fella that I work with was down there and he bought one, called me on his cell phone and asked me if I wanted it, he stayed there until I got there and I purchased it. Since the SS is doing all of those new reno's it was sitting in the portrait studio all weekend long without a home.



Wii Fit is mine, mine, mine I say!



Sorry Nick.......I'll let you try it though :o)

Hot

What a beautiful week we are having, this is perfect vacation weather, although I have to wait a few more weeks for that to happen, I sure hope it sticks around for a while longer.

It is almost the middle of July and school supplies are starting to show up, I was up at Staples the other day and they have school supplies out and about and ready to go. I was suprised, although none of it is on sale yet......

I'm looking forward to buying some back to school clothes, I've already been looking, shoes are a big thing this year, not sure what I will buy yet but I'm sure my 6 year old going on 20 will "inform" me.

Vacation plans have us taking a few day trips to the beach and shopping in the USA (of course).

Should be a great time, I just wish it would hurry up and come.

Criminal Kids

This morning on the 6am news they told a story about 2 underage kids who were doing smash and grabs in the New Maryland area along with other crimes. The two children could not be named and blah, blah, as well as they didn't receive much as a punishment.

I know some of you may not agree with me, and I have a young offender in my own family and this is my stand on it.

A criminal is a criminal and I don't really care what age they are at, the Youth Criminal Act is ridiculous. Do you know how many times my family member "got off" with stuff. They barely receive a slap on the hand, some were even as bold to say "look out when they become adults", oh yeah, well maybe if they were dealt with as kids our justice system would actually do its name good and we'd all have "justice".

The fact they won't name the kids is another beef of mine.

If these kids have done something bad enough to have to go in front of a judge (under our tax dollars) then they should be named and they should be punished. I'm sick and tired of everyone getting off scott free.

So when it does come to law abiding citizens we get nailed to the wall (in my opinion).

I'm not asking you to agree or disagree, I'm just saying damn it will anyone do anything about what the kids are doing?

I'm trying to teach my kid that there is a consequence to every action, then I turn around and see kids getting off with smash and grabs? Doesn't add up?

I know I am exagerating but really its bad, very bad. The kid criminals eventually turn into adult criminals and the crimes get worse and worse, to be honest the adult system is just as bad.

I know a young woman who is up for sentencing in 2 weeks time on killing someone in a car accident from last year, she is 24 or 25, 2 small children, she was driving while under the influence of Coke and alcohol, killed one of the people in the car with her, the family is "oh its a shame, the kids family forgave her", they weren't too impressed when I said "but she did the crime she has to do the time", her grandfather said "yep your right she does".

Unfortunately her 2 small children may lose their mom for 2-5 years but hey, them's the breaks. She did the crime and now everyone has to pay. (she has since lost her job as she was working for in a financial setting)...its what I mean when I say there are consequences to every action, sometimes a lot more than you ever thought.

Call me Coach

Its that time of year again when I become coach to 25 kids in the community. I'm looking forward to it, although we have a over abundance of 4 year olds so that will take some getting use to but we'll manage.

We've decided that more parents on the field at all times is very important and as you know I am not shy to pull parents off the bench to lend a helping hand.

I've already been contacted about playing a game or two with communities close by, they heard how great out program was last year and invited us to get together with their teams, I'm sure our kids will be pleased with that.

I know for some people they really think we pull this out of a hat and make it run by doing nothing but I have to say we (the coaches) put a lot of hours and time into making the 8 weeks run smoothly and ensure the kids are learning what they are suppose to learn, along with other fundamentals and above all having a good time.

Last year our best skill drill was having them toss water balloons to one another to teach them to be gentle when tossing the ball, give them the sense of touch. So this year I have already purchased 1800 water balloons, we only had 500 last year so we used the drill only once then at the end of the season BBQ we paired all of the families up and gave them balloons to throw at each other, it sure works well on a hot night. So the kids are going to have a blast with those. The funny part is they don't realize they are learning valuable skills......even when they whip the balloon at us or mom & dad they are learning target practice as well :o)

I enjoy doing this for the kids and to see their smiling faces even at the end of each practice, they have all got a turn, had some fun and earned a lot of praise.

Lets Play Ball!!!!